I know where I belong...

Almost 3 years since last post, a long time. I would not say I was too busy not to write, it is just that mental block. And ya I was enjoying life too much except last 8 months. I moved to Pune in July 2012, Mukt born in Aug 2012 and then it was roller-coaster life in Pune on both fronts, personal as well as professional.

Then you know human nature hits me, we never satisfied what we have and always wants more. It was long time dream to go to USA for job and finally got the visa for it in Aug 2014.

Don't want to write negative things here hence not going into details what happened after we arrived in US but short story is not enjoying as much as I thought. My manager said below words while I was leaving India "You will not enjoy what are you able to enjoying here with your current salary. Life is not rosy there (USA) as it seems from here (India)." Now I am completely agree with him.....

I written a blog about my USA exp when I visited 1st time.. Now I know where I belong...

Hard Winter and hardly any winter... Consulting and Full time... Be ready to move all over the country and choose city on your own... Things you get in just a $ and Things you can't get in a ₹... Too short / Too long days and same days throughout a year... Much needed insurance and much needed cash... Credit and Relations... Carpets and Marbles... Sunday for Swami and Sunday for movies... Hardly anyone standing in trains and hardly you will get a seat in trains...  Planned outings and unplanned parties.... pre-owned cars and new bikes... 25 MBPS uninterrupted speed and 2 MBPS interrupted speed... No electricity cut outs and no week without electricity cut outs... Facebook/skype calls and family gatherings... You-tube shows and cable channels... Almost non exist public transport and over crowded public transports... Week long doctor appointments and long queue at clinics... 

Now I know where I belongs..... May be story would be different with out family... with out kids... who knows... life is bitch and life is beautiful... you know what future holds for you and that's the scary part... that's the beauty of life too... 

Some Thoughts... at end... at start.... – II

I left JP Morgan on Friday and joining Barclays in Pune. It will be my fourth job and again I am changing the city. Each time I change the job, I have changed city also. I wish it would some new city but I am happy that it is Pune, one of my favorite city after Ahemdabad and Surat. :) ...

When I left Persistent three years back, I was sad, very sad. Apart from good company, I left good city, and bunch of life time friends.  Here is the link of that time, http://anipateldreams.blogspot.in/2009/08/some-thoughts-at-end-at-start.html

When I took bus last time from JP Morgan, I feel void but not sad or happy feelings. It’s like, ok one chapter of life finish and starts a new chapter; that’s it. Yes, I enjoyed working in JP Morgan in first year because it was too hectic and I had no time to think anything else.  Last one and half years are more of frustrations and full of complaints. I never like people who complaints but I did the same in last year so you know it changed me in sad way. Anyways let’s not discuss those things, it’s past now. I want to remember only good things, I had worked with some wonderful people and hope to see you them again.

Ya, one thing I must say that I got the very good respect from all people with whom I worked and that matters most then any other things, you know I sounds like oldies, but I am inspired from Rahul Dravid.

Let’s see how life goes in Pune and Barclays. I hope that I continue with blog now as I don’t have to spend 3 to 4 hours on commuting now. :) 

જુન, વરસાદ અને મુંબઈ...

આ ભીની ભીની હવા મુંબઈની..... ન્હાયા પછી તરત જ ચામડી પર આવી જતી ચીકાશ.... તડકા સાથે સંતાકુકડી રમતા વાદળો...  ૨ કલાકનો ટ્રાફિક ઓફીસ સુધીનો જે છે ૪૦ મિનીટના રસ્તો... ઓફીસ પહોંચતા સુધીમાં પોતું બની જતો રૂમાલ...
આવ રે વરસાદ... જલ્દી આવ હવે તું....

ये गीली गीली सी हवा मुंबई की.... नहाने के बाद तुरंत ही चमड़ी पे आ जाती चिकाश... धुप के साथ छुपा-छुपी खेलते बादल...  2 घंटे का ट्राफिक ऑफिस तक जो है 40 मिनिट का रास्ता... ऑफिस पहोंचने तक पोछा  हो जाता रुमाल...
आ रे बारिश... अब जल्दी आ तू.....

year review..... 2011....

You must be thinking review 2011 before end but if nothing happened in 50 weeks, nothing is going to change in 2 weeks. yup, Its been a year since I came back from successful trip of USA and it is complete waste; I did nothing apart from going office and completing day 2 day work. It is wasted professionally. Last year I was busy in one assignment and got credit too. This year, no important assignment and not even blogging :). I had set few goals at the start of year (as always.. by tradition...) and when I checked it today, not a single one accomplish. 

anyways.... feeling good after reading Anupam's gtalk status: Don't feel bad. Lots of people have no talent...

another complete waste is book 'The witch of Portobello By Paulo Coelho', at least for me. It keeps talking about searching your reason for life, your mission on the earth and blah blah... I did try that few years back and failed miserably. Book says the do the things that you love, that you enjoy most. Well, I enjoy cricket, movies and reading but I am not good in any of these that I can earn decent money for living hence.. anyways, I like few quotes from book and sharing with you. Enjoy....

• No one lights a lamp in order to hide it behind the door: the purpose of light is to create more light, to open people's eyes, to reveal the marvels around.
• Pity those who seek for shepherds, instead of longing for freedom! An encounter with the superior energy is open to anyone, but remains far from those who shift responsibility onto others.
• Because all my life I've learned to suffer in silence.
• Christ said: "Come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Church has changed those words to read: "Come unto me all ye who follow our rules, and the let the heavy laden go hang!" Jesus might have replied: 'My Child, I've been excluded too. It's a very long time since they've allowed me in there.'
• 'when I dance, I'm a free woman, or, rather, a free spirit who can travel through the universe, contemplate the present, diving the future, and be transformed into pure energy. And that gives me enormous pleasure, a joy that always goes far beyond everything I've experienced or will experience in my lifetime.'
• I came in search of a meaning for my life, because, at present, its only meaning is my son and I'm afraid I might end up destroying him, either by being over-protective or by projecting onto him the dreams I've never managed to realise.
• 'Do you know what the word "ecstasy" means? It comes from the Greek and means, "to stand outside yourself".
• I dance whenever I can, but music only exists because the pauses exist. When I'm doing something, I feel complete, but no one can keep active 24 hours a day. As soon as I stop, I feel there's something lacking. You've often said to me that I'm a naturally restless person, but I didn't choose to be that way. I'd like to sit here quietly, watching television, but I can't. My brain won't stop. Sometimes, I think I'm going mad.
• When I die, bury me standing, because I've spent all my life on my knees!'

and its from me: New year is on horizon and so the new hope....  :)

Morning that is not coming... :( ...

Everyone sees dream, dream of perfect beginning... I am dreaming of perfect beginning of day since I started job.... I was lean boy during college days, well.. not lean but yes, average body.. neither lean nor fat n it's better then lean, right? :) .... anyways, ones my professional life started, I fell into same software professionals category who spent long hours at office, at chair n less outside, less gym... less physical activity... n then its bound to happen.... :( ..... 

Three years back, My doctor friend asked me to check my cholesterol level and as he guess, it was on higher side and he advised me to start jogging/walking 3 km per day.... since then I am dreaming of wake up early at 6 am and go for running.... I promised him for 3 months n its been 3 years now... :( .... 

Last year, Hetsi born and as a sports lover, I would like if she makes career in some sports... n then I promised myself that I play with her.... now she is 16 months old n very active.... too active for me... :( ......

Yesterday I was desperate for today's perfect morning... preparing myself... that I will wake up today at 6 am.. go for walk n then do yoga at home... I even bought honey (someone told me it burns more calories if you take it with warm water in morning), oat (fiber food) and new shoes. and then then....

I got one issue at 8 pm and stuck in office till 11:30 pm, reached home at midnight... Today I woke up at 8 am... :( ... some dreams are to good to be real..... 

and when you live at Andheri station... it's not about choice between skip dinner or not... it's about choice between McDonald and vada-pav :) .... n damn... McDonald opens from 6am morning to 1am night... n I took two mac-veggie after I reached home midnight....